So, my work decided to hold a biggest loser competition.  It started at the beginning of January.  At that time I was 174 pounds and was desperate to feel and look better.  That was the time I started with my trainer and have been working out pretty much 7 days a week straight since.  You could call me the underdog in the competition.  My weight loss was gradual enough and I was not discussing how much I was losing or what I was doing in order to lose it with anyone.  It was clear that after listening in to conversations, they did not think I could win this.  The morning of the weigh in, my husband asked if I was nervous.  My exact response was, "Not at all.  If someone is working harder than me, then they deserve it".  After 3 months of busting my ass, it was clear that after a 16% body percentage of weight loss, I was the biggest loser.  I walked away with $440.00 in my pocket last week but it already had a home - my trainer.  She is my motivation...the person that keeps me grounded and one of my biggest fans.  I know I would never be where I am if it were not for her.  She meets with me twice a week but is a phone call and e-mail away anytime I need her.  She sends me many articles during the week to keep me focused and continues to keep me striving to be the best and achieve what I have set out to achieve.  Since I have made this committment to you and to me, I have lost 31 pounds.  But,I still have 20 to go and I am not giving up!!!

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I will tell you that even with this weight loss, I have my bad days.  My husband was traveling and I could not get to the gym as often....I started to crave chocolate and ate a half bag of chocolate chips in one day.....I had a headache and skipped a workout....I am human too and these things happen.  The only difference is that I don't let them KEEP going.  I tossed out the rest of the chocolate chips (as in there them away in the trash with other things so I could not fish them out...haha) and I moved on to a two hour workout. Yep, burn it off.  It's all about calories in versus calories out.  I get frustrated too, just like everyone else.  Even though the scale has made major improvements, it does feel like this is taking forever and its hard work every single day.  But every day I get closer and closer to my goal....and I know that once I get there, maintaining is so much sweeter.

So don't put off what you can do today.  If you made some bad choices, don't say to yourself that you already ruined the day or the week or you will just start over on Monday.....start again NOW....go to the gym and burn it off....don't give yourself the green light to treat yourself badly again.  We all made mistakes...learn from them and move on.  Because if we can't treat ourselves with respect, how can we expect anyone else to?

I'm 148 today.....by the wedding I am in (June 18th), that will be 128.....